Expectations

• I want a guy who is taller than me when I wear heels.
• I want a guy who can sing.
• I want a guy who can rap.
• I want a guy who is good at sports/athletics.
• I want a guy who can dance.
• I want a guy who can cook.
• I want a good looking guy.
• I want a smart guy.
• I want a guy who is rich.
• I want a guy who has a goal in life.
• I want a guy who is funny.

Coolest Story Ever!!

Okay I lied in the title, but if I called it what I really wanted, then most of you wouldn't read... You'll probably be disgusted by the moistness of it, but I think a lot of people would benefit from it.... So.. here it goes...

Love is an ugly, terrible business practised by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake! 

 Or ...

Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures, Love is airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside  of you that you didn't even know was there. 

Or ...

I guarantee that there'll be tough times; I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna wanna get out of this thing: But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life... because I know in my heart that you're only one for me. 

Or...

Love is like the wind... you can't see it, but you feel it.

Or... 

Love is that can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the starts, over the fence, world series kinda stuff....

Or...


I could actually go on and on, with quotes from songs and movies and poems and plays and books and articles and speeches and proposals and whatnots, but that doesn't make a difference. Love is what ever you make of it, it's not something you can put a finger on. It's not something you see in the shop and point out to everyone. So when you say you're looking for love, 'the love that they have', you'll NEVER find it, because they've created what they have. They've taken their feelings and redesign it to suit their lifestyle, made it theirs. That's why it's their love. Love is NOT common thing, Love isn't the same for everyone, Love is not comparing others to you, Love is .....


I say I don't believe in love and maybe that's true, I mean I don't see myself abiding by those things I've said up there. What I believe is that love has no definition. Nobody knows what Love is, but we all know what it isn't. It's probably why people who say 'I'm looking for love' or 'I can't wait to fall in love' don't find or fall in love. 

My opinion, feel free to disagree... but yeah...
Another page from Toni's book.!!

xxx

Dying Love (Part 1)

Ah.. it's been a while since I put a pen to paper my fingers to keyboard, but for a number of reasons... Again... this is nothing personal... just observation and empathy...ENJOY!

TO A DYING LOVE;

A letter to a dying love, whose absence itself could kill.Who's moments are fading because she is ill,And her time on this earth; limited, yet it feels so surrealA letter to a dying love, here's exactly how I feel.

Every minute spent, like it's the final, like it's the last.

Reflecting on the future, because the future is now the past,

Our longest of  moments moving ever so fast,

The condition of my loved one is defined unsurpassed.

Sometimes I feel weak, so I run away from there

But the worry that, I'll wake up and she'll no longer be here

A life after love, it seems impossible to bear,

I just have to be strong, and show her I care.

I live to spend with you every nightfall, every dawn.

I've forgotten about the rest of the world, from them I have withdrawn

I wish your emotional strength would extend to your brawn

For I literally can't see beyond my life from you death and anything thereon.

FLASHBACK : 27TH FEB, 2011

I wrote this earlier on this year, and my view STILL hasn't changed just thought I'd bring it here for anyone who never got the chance to read...

So last week, I said something really random and in response, some guy said to me

‘that’s why you don’t have a boyfriend’.(I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE that line so much. What exactly does it imply?)
I went on to say..

‘Who says I want one’ 

and he replies

‘That’s what every single girl tricks herself into believing.. either she doesn’t want one or need one.’

That was the sentence that got me tickin. THE WORST BIT: Every guy there was like ‘I know right’ or ‘Truuueee’ or just a comment of agreement.

You boys need to understand that sometimes a girl just want to go out with her friends, meet people and not have to give a toss about ‘if he’ll be upset’ or ‘will this make him jealous’.
 Its why we have ladies night, not because we are ‘sad’ or  we ‘can’t get a man’.. because we genuinely do not want a man.

I hear boys so often say, relationships are ‘long’, ‘stressful’, ‘over-hyped’, ‘over-rated’ e.t.c the list goes on, and I’m sat there thinking.. Hold on a minute.. who says its easy for girls? Do you think stressing over a man is our idea of life?

And then when she gets hurt, she puts men on hold and you say ‘Not all men are the same.’ 

Its true, I agree, not all men are the same… some are worse, some are men with the mind of a boy, some are thoughtless, empty minded and shallow and others are just there.  I’m not trying to slag boys of, don’t get me wrong… I have a brother and my best friend is a guy and I think I have more guy friends than girl friends, but when guys say girls are ‘stingy’ they need to check its not them. 

I remember one day, a guy said to me ‘Virgins above 16 are stingy.’ (I know not all guys think this). I was shocked. That statement was full of greed. It fumed me, yet I managed to stay calm and say… ‘Stingy people always have a lot to give whenever they decide to.’

Boys be careful what you say around girls, especially single girls.. it sticks.. it develops the stereotype and it counteracts your game. 

Girls..enjoy being single, don’t feel pressured into a relationship because they say you are lonely or because everyone around you is in one. I’ll tell you this… you’re more treasured when your unavailable and that is a FACT!

A tip for the fellas

For boys that have a scandalous reputation, EXPECT her to be weary.
If you’ve got a best friend that’s a female.. EXPECT her to be on guard.
If you jam with you ‘homies’ most of the time, EXPECT her to be needy/clingy.
If you’re to secretive, EXPECT her to be intrusive.
If she is upset, EXPECT her to call YOU to rant/cry/shout. 

London Riots?

I wrote this sometime in August but forgot to post... please read and enjoy it goes hand in hand with my next post (well sorta kinda really).


Remember this people, David Starkey is a historian.


Now that that's out of the way... *peers out the window for rioters*.. Okay.. so the coast is clear.. well it has been for over 3 days.. but still... I'm paranoid. This isn't a recent thing.. I've been known for my unnecessary paranoia, however these London riots just made me feel.. LONDON ISN'T SAFE. My phone has been buzzing all week because Ealing was looted/attacked. (Which I still don't understand why.)


So aside from finally renewing my British passport in the now likely event of the a racial sweep over!


Today I am writing as a British Nigerian. (Something everyone can relate to like a cousin or neighbour)


At the risk of disclosing too much info bout myself.. (you know how the MET have eyes on everything.. like they Big Brother or something.) Here are some facts that will help you understand my position and my view.


1) I was born in London
2) I have lived in Ealing for 19 years
3) I am 20 years old
4) I went to Secondary school in Nigeria.
5) I AM in uni!


Now you understand?
Anyway... before you read on.. I need you to watch and read the following.. respectively.


WATCH: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-14513517


READ: http://www.russellbrand.tv/2011/08/big-brother-isnt-watching-you/




DONE? You didn't finish did you? Or you haven't read? Oh well.. read on here then..


Basically, everyone has got something to say about these London riots. What's annoying me is how things are being said. How it's people are trying to justify them. We are in NO position whatsoever to administer justice upon anyone no matter the situation. So they say Mark Duggan (RIP) was an innocent man shot dead, it's something we'll never get the full story of. There will forever be media influence, personal re-accounts, the truth lies between the officers that shot, Mark Duggan and God. So why on earth or rather how on earth would taking (and I refuse to use stealing because to steal, you require shame, and these looters had none of that.) a pair of trainers from JD or a dress from the £5 store or smashing Wilkinsons or Blockbusters windows resolve the issue at hand? Fair enough people wanted to be heard, but London Riots of 2011 were NOT a protest, they were a group of aimless individuals who wanted in my opinion to be a part of history. They wanted to tag to the future updated history textbooks. The fact that it went viral and spread to other counties in England was also disturbing especially considering the deaths.

However, as much as all of this disturbed me, what hurt me most was David Starkey's response. You see that little video up there, that's gonna get me vexed whenever I see it. Not because its a lie or anything, but because it is full of Ignorance. I mean I console myself with the belief that David Starkey speaks as a historian. By this I mean his views are inevitably archaic. The fact that there has been a culture swing does not mean there has been a culture shift. To say the 'whites have become black' is simply derogatory to black people. For he was associating criminality with a race. This was what our grandparents did, but our society today shows us that crime is of no restriction to race. There were many other comments in his opinion that upset me but I will not dwell on them.


Lastly, Russell Brand's response. I must say he lightened up my mood with it. I found it quite hilarious however I respected his opinion. Not because he spoke of a individual of colour, no race wasn't the question in his argument. He spoke of the truth and hit the nail on the head. The issue was NOT race, it was class. Social class which was the issue and although he didn't justify the riots, he painted a clearer picture for all.Although he does lean towards the Essex fellow growing up in Dangenham and Romford.


Anyway, I can't implant beliefs or opinions on London riots in anybody's head, its left to you to conjure your own views. But what I can give you are things that will help you think smartly.