Apology x

I owe someone an apology and it's just dawning upon me.

All this while I believed the problem was you,
I'd erased from my mind what in fact was true,
That I'd been the one who had actually messed up
And now I was suffering an empty love
I was ignorant mainly in denial
Nd still under belief that we could give things a trial
But my actions were enough to send you away
And now I finally get it

At that point your trust was already minimal,
And I thrashed it to a greater degree.
And I know you might argue otherwise
But that's how it's revealed itself to me.
Nd for this reason I'm taking this opportunity
To apologise... I'm sorry.

Late love

I fell over in love a little to late, and now I'm wondering why.
Why I never took the chance, when I best believed it there. Why I ignored my heart and believed I didn't care. Why I told things about me, but my secrets I never did share and now I'm thinking back in my life.

I fell in love a moment to late for in my mind we should actually be. But I was battling with my inner self and  trying to convince poor old me. That you weren't what I wanted, we just wouldn't be right, but we got on so well, nd things might've been perfect, but I chose to knock that out if sight.

I fell in love, a person too late and now I'm green all over. I was so sure that she, would never take that spot yet I constantly see you together. I should've known not to wait, but I thought I knew best. I thought that time wasting, would put you to the test. So I'm psyching myself that she's just a guest and I'm the permanent resident of your heart.

I've fallen in love and it's just not right, in time or person or place.
And I hurt with anger, jealousy and regret as I see joy upon your face.
But I wish you the best and refrain from sabotage and I sit in the corner clutching my heart.

Waffles 'n' Cream!!!

Haha.. no guys this is not a fatty food post.
This is a fashion feature!!

Clothing line WAFFLES.N.CREAM are back with a new summer 2013 lookbook.

Yes, 'CRACK IS WACK' is back and  looking rather dope might I add.

Check it out guys.... WAFFLESNCREAM

I'm so excited!! Considering a wardrobe changeover coming soon, a feature from this line MUST be included!!
I wouldn't recommend what I wouldn't wear.

ENJOY

Having once loved.

Having once loved...

The hardest part of having once loved is having to to stop loving completely. 

What we loved most about the other becomes what we hate in another. 

Shared interest become painful reminders and we therefore cut these loose. 

Thus in losing a person in love, we lose a part of our personalities.

So do we save those we love or save ourselves in trying?

Or are we all for the better in giving up and dying in love with it a loveless personality.

The hardest part of having once loved, is having to watch the other move on.

What we loved most about the other, is now treasured by another.Shared interest become a three-way and therefore we cut these loose.

Thus in losing a person, we lose a potential friend

So do we save ourselves for them or make a couple less

Or are all for the better in giving up and sticking with our best who love us regardless.

The hardest part of having once loved, is having to have strength yourself.

What we loved most about the other, is taken away and we are left less than before
Shared interest become a weakness bestowed upon us and therefore we cut loose.

Thus in losing a person in love, we lose a part of our strength

So do we save our strength or become weak in trying?

Or are we all for the better in giving up and failing in a new love thats weak from the past.

The hardest part of having once loved, is no one will ever relate.

What we loved most about the other, is blind to their eye

Shared interest become weird habits to you alone and therefore we cut loose.

Thus in losing a person in love, we lose ourselves to a lonely land

So do we save our sanity or become insane in love?

Or are we all for the better in giving up and staying with the rest of the world?

                                 ©

Story time.

 'People create stories create people; or rather stories create people create stories.' - Chinua Achebe. (R.I.P)

I promised myself that giving up twitter would mean more writing  I have actually kept that up. The only problem is I haven't been able to share my work. This has been for different reasons and yet none whatsoever. (This all makes sense to me, so forgive me if you are confused.)

Anyways, school's out, and exams are fast approaching and I'm doing everything in my power to avoid actually doing work. But that's not what brings me here, believe it or not, I sometimes feel writing is work and i prefer to perform. I remember starting out this year intensely gassed about the opportunities and stuff I had lined up... and they are still there. Just my enthusiasm has been curbed by reality and well frankly now I've just been waiting for things to  happen.

I have all been waiting for 'time', when in fact time is running from me. I know I know, we're all bored of he whole 'time is of the essence' speech, but really and truly we never should be. It took the death of a great writer to remind me that I too wanted to be a writer. I mean I am a writer, I'm not sure what level, I'm not even sure who my audience is, but I am a writer. I have started writing, but what happens when I'm done with this book? and the next? You see, to be as great as Achebe, I need to do more than just write. I need to put myself out there and quite frankly, there's no better 'time' than NOW.

My problem? Procrastination! You've read this somewhere before? We all have, but what do we do after? Just sit back and say '5 more minutes'. I'm not trying to force you out of this habit, Lord knows I didn't drag you into it. But I want you to know that the reason things aren't happening to you, is cos your'e not happening to things. Be places, speak to people trust me, opportunities will come faster than expected.

I recently decided I wanted to teach and well, I got a couple of thumbs ups, and go for it's but the confirmation was when I put my C.V online and I got offered a teaching job (no experience yet) along with approaches from tutoring agencies. This isn't me trying to brag, if anything, I was shocked! It's just giving an example of doing something to do more.

I may not die as great as Achebe, I may die even greater, but I know not doing anything means I won't be remembered beyond those I've met and that is NOT what I desire. My story and my person are yet to be created.