My summer fling with an ex... part 10 (The finale)

The finale.

The next day, my ex tried to comfort me, knowing that I could never retrieve what had been lost, but I decided to give whatever he had in store a try. I went about my business and when the time came, I tried to redeem things, but it was too long a process so I left.
I had plans to do family things, but my ex thought to experience my otherwise, so plans unfolded and we did other things with friends.
The day ended and my ex and I went our separate ways.

The next day, I woke up to a crying ex. It went on for hours, during church and even after. Tears so bad I decided to change locations. I knew our time was coming to an end but my exes tears dampened my spirits, besides someone was leaving the next day. We wrapped things up and off to bed we went. That night I said no words to my ex. I was too distraught.


The following day, I went to make my hair and then visit some friends and spent the night. The next day, I returned home and was meant to see another, but in an act of jealousy, my ex deterred him. That night I lay with my ex in bed, staring till sleep came.


Then it was over. My 14 days were up. As we drove to the airport, I watched as I left my ex behind, checked in and all and sat on the plane. Upon take-off I fought back the tears but a couple made it down my cheek. It was over. I knew we'd definitely be reunited, I mean, once you love Lagos, you're never gonna leave!

Lagos was my ex, and this summer, we had a fling!

Hope you enjoyed this and you weren't disappointed?


xx

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!: 'The reason' of the season.

MERRY CHRISTMASS EVERYONE!

Okay, so by UK time, I'm late by an 2hours + but other places are still in Christmas soo it's all good :)
Lol... Besides, in my household, Christmas day is also the day that my name becomes pleasnt on the tongues of all adults and I'm asked to do all sorts of tasks. And as my cooking is desired by many, the kitchen becomes my bedroom. This year it wasn't so bad tbh, and I love my pressies. Did you have a good one?

Well hope we didn't forget the reason for the season? Yups... Church was where I was at midnight! Lol. Celebrating the birth of Christ... But this post hasn't got much to do with that tbh. It's just a play on words.

This is called the reason, and well, it's my gift to you all this season!  Enjoy. Share. Feedback.

The reason

Feel bad for how you met me

You know it was wrong.

Though unspoken, I should've let be

You and I for the Long

Run, is all I want to do, away from you. 

But the voices in my head argue against that.

Telling me 'you can't do better, he's the best you'll ever have. ' 

And I'm beginning to believe them since all my luck is

'Bad, boys' all I seem to attract. 

Or do I just repel the goods ones in an attempt to not look weak.

Overly bearing, insistingly independent and convincingly confident I seem.

But there's fear and pain and sorrow and anger and so much more within.

So when I do move on, I compare him to you. And the similar traits are a perfect reminder. 

Of what I never made of what I had and

Ponder the possibility of having you back. 

And the next lad is wondering what's on my mind. 

Trying his hardest to submerge into my thoughts. 

But all his efforts are regarded as tries to submerge further under my clothes. 

So here I am barricading my heart and with my legs crossed pretending that's really the truth. 

When deep down I'm ready, for my heart to be open, but the holder of the key seems to be you. 

But you knoweth this not and I live in denial, I can't stand that you've completely moved on. 

So I psyche myself that I'm better than her or maybe I am and now I'm off to the world. 

To start a search in purity and faith but you seem to find your way back or I unknowingly want you or maybe I don't or I subliminally fall into your trap. 

And we talk and we catch up and there's so much to share, I feel like the beginning that you've always been there.

Then we flirt and we tease and something reignites, till you spoil the moment and have to remind 

Me. I'm not the one for you, but that also means for anyone.

Because I'm too damaged to move on, but too proud to move back. 

So I'm on my own little island . Trying to fix me and leave you behind but I don't seem to know how. 

Friendship is impossible and it's too late for us now so my future is without you till I've at least figured it out.

And when I do I'll tell you, not in an attempt to brag, but to be sure I'm strong and you no longer hold me.

To the next you whom I'm now ready to love please understand that it will take time. 

So don't be the other option, help me leave this Island and ill know when we've arrived.

Cos we'll both be able to feel it in all types of ways, our souls, our bodies and mind.

And I may fall overboard and travel away, I promise you I'll return one day,

For through thunderstorms and hail, no matter the season,

You'll bear with me, so long as you understand this reason.

© Toni Peters

My summer fling with an ex...9

On this day, my ex sought to remind me how those within the same place will forever break your heart and that distance would actually benefit us. We had plans, but mine we're crushed before I could even rearrange. I was hurt. I sat in the midst of my ex and pretended like nothing was wrong, but i lied, so that night, when we went out... I misbehaved. To the extent that I lost something so precious to me. I was gutted. How it happened... I don't even remember, I just remember the last face I saw was dark and handsome and a couple inches above me, I remember his name actually, we'll call him S. for the sake of anonymity. There was more drama that night, all so blurry now tbh, but It's a forgotten night I'll ALWAYS remember.

My summer fling with an ex...8

Again my ex woke my up joyfully and gave me the treatment I had lacked. I had a couple of things to do, so my ex was ignored for a bit, but then as my plans had it, we were off again. My ex was set to show me that my new habits would be better of enjoyed in the presence of my ex. We faffed and bantered with a couple more friends and I was whisked away. My ex gave me and my visitor some private time. I wanted this time so much, and my ex understood this. A little more happened and then we were off for the night.
My ex and I fell asleep.

My summer fling with an ex...7

The next day I made plans of my own and my ex just went along with them. From brunch to just jamming. There wasn't much. Still in the midst of my ex at all times. I felt warm... literally. Lol.
The day was live and the night was chilled and my ex gave me further insight on returning.  I resisted.
That night, my ex and I ... I don't actually remember you know. Dammit!