The Enigmatic Truth

Words are words

A picture says a thousand words

so what then does a short film say?

I have the pleasure of personally knowing the people in this movie and well I don't want to drop my biased opinion so I'll leave you to be the judge of it.... but trust me... IT'S WORTH IT!!!

Enjoy

Raw: Dark hole.

Raw in the sense that it comes straight from the heart... NO FILTER. What goes on in m head/heart.

ENJOY!!!!

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Silence as you unleashed the beast that you call passion

I would sit and listen in awe

You'd teach and then send samples and share stories too

I would simply adore.

I was rough and wry, and a little damaged

but you provided that healing supply

As I've never been one to say it how it is

I just usually go with the flow

But with you, it was different, you brought out the best

and removed me from that dark hole.

Tears.

Anger.

Pain.

I run away from the world as nothing is the same

It's different without you,

Everyday...

A new challenge

I try even harder to move on.

But I see you in my sleep

and even worse, in my daily activities

Leave me please

Is it not enough that my heart you have seized

I'm running again, this time towards you

I don't even realise till I'm at your door

Face front with rejection like I'm asking for more.

I'm weak in yearning for you and your love

I want that and more, I want your touch

But I know I can't so I just turn away, 

And walk back to my little dark hole.

Now I'm jealous of what I don't even know

and my eyes are simply on fire.

Breathing is difficult

and Hating seems best

but I give you more time, like you're under a test

and convince myself that I like you much less

But I can't so I get bitter and cold

and the next best option is to avoid

So I'm sly in my ways 

and I'm playing it 'lowkey'

but you still seem to be everywhere I go

so I'm packing my bags and running again back into that dark hole.

Are you trying to hurt me?

Do you thrive off my pain?

Do my utter discomfort and sorrow bring you joy?

Or am just a project, a future referral
Why do I feel like this was all just one game

I refuse to believe this, based on what you told me

or tell me were those simply just lies

To please me?

Cos you didn't. You only worsened the situation

and now I wear my emotions in disguise

Pretending I’m fine

When I'm aching within

My heart... bleeding

From the piercing you gave.

I'll survive...

But with a big dark hole in it.

Excuse my odd moods,

It's just me recovering

And pardon me, for be upset you moved on

A couple months later, I'm more than forgotten

and there's no point in trying to hold on.

I had hope for the future

I'm sorry you didn't

I wanted more than I could chew

Or maybe I didn't, I just wanted pure joy

And that seemed to come with you.

Now I can't have that, 

Someone else can.

And my pain goes deep

Deep into that dark hole.

© Toni Peters

New-Old Post.

Exams are FINALLY over!!! Whoop!!

My brain is STILL recovering from the treacherous knowledge rape it faced but hey, we're surviving. A good weekend with the loved ones and more and now the dreaded lectures resume.

Overall.. it's been a stressful month, for more than 5 different reasons... but there's ALWAYS been a reason to smile.

Writing has been somewhat of a myth but I have an old post for you guys...

Sexes backwards is sexes. ©

You say I can’t play coz I am a girl,
You say you won’t cook because you’re a man.
You say I should stay at home coz I am a wife.
You say you can do anything a woman can.

You justify your lateness because your a female.
You show no emotion in guard of masculinity,
You  suffer your feet just to pass as a lady.
You use your male instincts to vindicate promiscuity

If we do the opposite of these actions
Does that make us men?
If we act as they desire,
Surely we’ll appear to be women

As the power struggle worsens out,
The end result perplexes.
But from above we seem to see, that
Sexes backwards is Sexes.

'He said, She said........Goodbye'

A little fun thing a friend and I worked on....it's two goodbye poems fused.... His name is Oyin Ogunkanmin (@Oyin23 on twitter) and I LOVE his work... Check out al his published ones so far here: Word Artist 92 .

Anyways, the fact that we had no idea what the other was writing made it extremely exciting!! Personally, I loved how it turned out.. but you guys should lemme know how you feel too..

So here it is...

He said, She said……………Goodbye

He said:

My modus operandi, I flash a smile, I care and my words are true

Big mistake, she’s not used to this, waves goodbye, arriverderci

Floods of emotion are held behind a dam of cold hard eyes

“It’s a fool proof method, my coping mechanism, don’t you agree?”

It is often said that actions speak louder than words

And the reality is that these actions hurt much more than words

This she has experienced, She just won’t trust, she has a tough hard exterior.

That's ok I understand your pain, you’ve been hurt so this facade is now your armour

They tell me “be what she had hoped you would be, stop, wait and listen”

But all she knows is that there are too many wolves in sheep’s clothing

I’ve tried but even when I tell you that you are the one for me

All that I can see in your eyes is a nagging doubt, Mon Cherie

Try as you may you cannot shake this feeling of sadness

The time has come to say that routine goodbye; romantic madness, a senseless au revoir

Tell me what has changed in you, because I feel the dreadful presence of déjà vu,

To me this goodbye is an excuse for you to run back to the heartbreaker

His ill treatment and danger, your intoxicating addiction, you are now a serial offender

It makes no sense, you want to feel safe and not shed tears from your beautiful eyes

But yet for no reason you choose that word to say: adieu, goodbye

Then She said:

There was nothing good about our love but it hurt to let you go.
Guess that gaga feeling, bad romance is  a feeling I now know.
You never made me feel complete but your absence made my heart deplete

 and sorrow is all it seems to bear

as you really are no longer there.
I still question the actual cause of our unexpected separation. We were good together, but fate didn't accept, and thought divided we'd be better.
So away we went without discussing what would happen the day that you and I should coincide by fate and meet along the way.
I've found it hard to feel that way about any other person, then I see you happy, and moved on well and your mind free of any burden.
It pains to know I could never bring smiles, towards your face. Mere bants and jokes is as far as I got in meeting your taste.
I don't still love you, the way I did, and I doubt I'd ever go back.
But did you really love me that way too, tell me lies or fact.
We're over now in all types of ways and it’s hard to be your friend, so this is my goodbye adios farewell
We've come to a peaceful end. 

©

My summer fling with an ex... part 10 (The finale)

The finale.

The next day, my ex tried to comfort me, knowing that I could never retrieve what had been lost, but I decided to give whatever he had in store a try. I went about my business and when the time came, I tried to redeem things, but it was too long a process so I left.
I had plans to do family things, but my ex thought to experience my otherwise, so plans unfolded and we did other things with friends.
The day ended and my ex and I went our separate ways.

The next day, I woke up to a crying ex. It went on for hours, during church and even after. Tears so bad I decided to change locations. I knew our time was coming to an end but my exes tears dampened my spirits, besides someone was leaving the next day. We wrapped things up and off to bed we went. That night I said no words to my ex. I was too distraught.


The following day, I went to make my hair and then visit some friends and spent the night. The next day, I returned home and was meant to see another, but in an act of jealousy, my ex deterred him. That night I lay with my ex in bed, staring till sleep came.


Then it was over. My 14 days were up. As we drove to the airport, I watched as I left my ex behind, checked in and all and sat on the plane. Upon take-off I fought back the tears but a couple made it down my cheek. It was over. I knew we'd definitely be reunited, I mean, once you love Lagos, you're never gonna leave!

Lagos was my ex, and this summer, we had a fling!

Hope you enjoyed this and you weren't disappointed?


xx