Raw in the sense that it comes straight from the heart... NO FILTER. What goes on in m head/heart.
ENJOY!!!!
...
Silence
as you unleashed the beast that you call passion
I would
sit and listen in awe
You'd
teach and then send samples and share stories too
I would
simply adore.
I was
rough and wry, and a little damaged
but you
provided that healing supply
As I've
never been one to say it how it is
I just
usually go with the flow
But with
you, it was different, you brought out the best
and
removed me from that dark hole.
Tears.
Anger.
Pain.
I run
away from the world as nothing is the same
It's
different without you,
Everyday...
A new
challenge
I try
even harder to move on.
But I see
you in my sleep
and even
worse, in my daily activities
Leave me
please
Is it not
enough that my heart you have seized
I'm
running again, this time towards you
I don't
even realise till I'm at your door
Face
front with rejection like I'm asking for more.
I'm weak
in yearning for you and your love
I want
that and more, I want your touch
But I
know I can't so I just turn away,
And walk
back to my little dark hole.
Now I'm
jealous of what I don't even know
and my
eyes are simply on fire.
Breathing
is difficult
and
Hating seems best
but I
give you more time, like you're under a test
and
convince myself that I like you much less
But I
can't so I get bitter and cold
and the
next best option is to avoid
So I'm
sly in my ways
and I'm
playing it 'lowkey'
but you
still seem to be everywhere I go
so I'm
packing my bags and running again back into that dark hole.
Are you
trying to hurt me?
Do you
thrive off my pain?
Do my
utter discomfort and sorrow bring you joy?
Or am
just a project, a future referral
Why do I feel like this was all just one game
I refuse
to believe this, based on what you told me
or tell me
were those simply just lies
To please
me?
Cos you
didn't. You only worsened the situation
and now I
wear my emotions in disguise
Pretending
I’m fine
When I'm
aching within
My
heart... bleeding
From the piercing
you gave.
I'll
survive...
But with
a big dark hole in it.
Excuse my
odd moods,
It's just
me recovering
And
pardon me, for be upset you moved on
A couple
months later, I'm more than forgotten
and
there's no point in trying to hold on.
I had
hope for the future
I'm sorry
you didn't
I wanted
more than I could chew
Or maybe
I didn't, I just wanted pure joy
And that
seemed to come with you.
Now I
can't have that,
Someone
else can.
And my
pain goes deep
Deep into
that dark hole.
© Toni Peters
