My summer fling with an ex...9

On this day, my ex sought to remind me how those within the same place will forever break your heart and that distance would actually benefit us. We had plans, but mine we're crushed before I could even rearrange. I was hurt. I sat in the midst of my ex and pretended like nothing was wrong, but i lied, so that night, when we went out... I misbehaved. To the extent that I lost something so precious to me. I was gutted. How it happened... I don't even remember, I just remember the last face I saw was dark and handsome and a couple inches above me, I remember his name actually, we'll call him S. for the sake of anonymity. There was more drama that night, all so blurry now tbh, but It's a forgotten night I'll ALWAYS remember.

My summer fling with an ex...8

Again my ex woke my up joyfully and gave me the treatment I had lacked. I had a couple of things to do, so my ex was ignored for a bit, but then as my plans had it, we were off again. My ex was set to show me that my new habits would be better of enjoyed in the presence of my ex. We faffed and bantered with a couple more friends and I was whisked away. My ex gave me and my visitor some private time. I wanted this time so much, and my ex understood this. A little more happened and then we were off for the night.
My ex and I fell asleep.

My summer fling with an ex...7

The next day I made plans of my own and my ex just went along with them. From brunch to just jamming. There wasn't much. Still in the midst of my ex at all times. I felt warm... literally. Lol.
The day was live and the night was chilled and my ex gave me further insight on returning.  I resisted.
That night, my ex and I ... I don't actually remember you know. Dammit!

My summer fling with an ex 6

My ex took me back to that familiar yet unfamiliar place again. And this time he made it known it was probably my last time there. I played around and caused a little damage while there but none to anyone's harm. I bumped into a couple of familiar faces. That was the thing, in the presence of my ex you were bound to see someone you know everyday. I wasn't complaining though.
We departed ways, as I left behind a precious item. I knew I'd get it back, so I wasn't so sad.

From there, my ex took me off to see some more family. Mine this time and we went for dinner, It was nice dinner and again, I saw familiar faces (who this time I dodged).
My ex and my cousins and I rounded up the day and well it was the very least to say one of the best.

Window to your heart

Window to your heart.

Eyelashes so long their shadows falsificating tears

Creating the illusion that you are unhappy.

Your rigid smile bearing a great resemblance to a frown

Heavy make up insinuating that you are hiding something.

You lies are transparent.

I can see deep within,

Your eyes a window to your heart,

And they are dark, meaning your heart is off.

No love is pumping out, just life

You merely live

As an organism and nothing more.

The heating must be off too as no one lives there

And that could explain the feeling in you presence

Cold.

Wait, footprints…

Someone was here before.

And they did a lot of damage too

But I’m here to clean things up

I’m here to mend you

I’ll take may time and tidy it all

Right down to your Left Ventricle

Ensuring the septum is only a biological division

And never gets in the way of my lifetime vision

A surgical procedure, my love is the incision

I’ll operate this clean up, with ultimate precision

And the results is up to, yes it’s your decision

Would you love again?

I promise to create memories

Ones that’ll last

I wont rush – I – an-*

D you,

But to Vena** we shall go,

Sipping glasses of cava***

Mending your Vena Cava

We can shop there too.

Losing focus.

It’s what happens with you

Your sorrow is intriguing

And your happiness is blue

But I promise once I’ve fixed you, your heart will NEVER bleed.

And your natural beauty is what shine through

Keep the window locked, so not just anybody can climb in

But give me the keys to your heart

I’ll help you see deep within

I’ll help you love again.

See these opening are more than just eyes to a being.

It’s an opening to what really lies inside.

And if you let me I’ll maintain it to the fullest

That’s if you let me reside

In your heart

That is where I long to be

With no other person but yourself and me

So don’t be afraid, to give me the key

Don’t hesitate to let me fulfil your needs

Let me be the one to be in control.

But I’ll do it with love and compassion as well

And I’ll make our story, one to show and tell

And you’ll never have to revisit this old love-hell

For as the guardian to the key to your heart,

I will ALWAYS love you.

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© Toni Peters

*Rush-I-an : Russian

**Vena is Russian for Vienna

***Cava is a Spanish wine.